I just want to talk...OK?!

Tadik aku masok Sarawak Plaza (SP), pasya alu kuar lagu This I Promise You. Sangat nostalgic OK. Rasa nak balit zaman 2001 macam ya, zaman aku gik kurus.Sebab cun di Lea Centre ya ada cermin, down ku nanggar dirik ku. Dan aku berkata kepada diriku,


"Damn! When did I become so damn ugly?" Where did this belly comes from? "


Stress gila OK. Eh, tok video clip This I promise You sebelom aku lupak. 11 tahun yang lalu, aku dah sik ingat gnei rupa video clip nya. Nasib ada You Tube.





Lepas ya, aku tuurn ke Everise. Sik ku tauk pa ku carik. Oh yes, eskrem koneto. Nemu lah apek ala-ala nok kedak nunggu tren rah Mid Valley. OK lah, daripada sekda nak ku tanggar. Pasyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa aku down, cibai lah perut boroi tok, kedak org prego 5 bulan, ngan sakit rahang ntah apa2 ntah, nyruuh ku emo nak nangis jak. MAcam worthless jak idup. Erghhh!! Bila down, aku nak makan agik. Celaka sik? Balit rumah aku makan macam apa jak. Ishhhh.


So, kinek tok aku down. PErut masih boroi. Bila pakei baju, nampak hodoh. Kacak nei pun baju ya, aku akan jadi hodoh juak bila makei. Aku sik lah mintak puji, aku maok aku suka nanggar dirik ku. Aku sik maok nak ngelak cermin atau apa2 jak reflection dirik ku sebab mata ku sakit nanggar dirik ku OK.


Dah, emo post gotta end here. Sekda orang sedap mata memandang ritok. Eeeeee!!~

so many things, empty pocket, too much time, so many annoying people

First off, I want this watch. I want it so bad I don care if you tell me it's not fakkin worth it. Saya mahu!!

New Gent Lacquered (www.swatch.com)

I want it in white. Sik maok kuning, walaupun sebenarnya kunin ya kacak juak. Dah dahhh!!


It's payday and I'm already broke. Ohhhh mengapa?? Macam cibai lahhh hidup tok. Pasya cerita CUEPECS gik. Ingat nyawa nya jak, nyawa kamek orang keja kompeni tok sik pikir kah? Eeeeee. Bukan nya kamek orang tok rami keja MNC (gaji ribu riban dapat meli baju mahal2) di Kuching tok. Nak ikat perut pun sik mampu sebab sik pat nak diikat agik. Klak aku coba makan batu, dapat kah sik, sik ku tauk. Nait gaji sidak keja gamen, mampuslah orang keja kompeni kedak kamek orang tok. Harus lah aku sik makan, pasya jadi tai tai, body kacak, jadi model. Yahhh!! Verangan kooooh.


Macam orang lain dapat ikat perut bejimat kumpol duit, pasya meli segala iphone lah, perfume lah. Aku dah tryyyyyyyyyy, pasya ada jak agenda yang memerlukan duit. Cibai lah. Kali mun aku sekda kereta, boleh ku ber-iphone. Mun aku bayar bulan ajak tapi sik payah meli minyak, boleh kali. Atau mun opis ku belakang rumah bok minyak ku jimat.



Pasya, orang nok mean (jaik bukan mean mean) ngan aku, nak nikah.Adalah duak tiga orang. Aku nok kiut dari segi size sekda orang maok kah? Wakakakakak Sik adalah. Sik perlu!!! Aku maok orang sweet, caring sensitive to my needs, sik perlulah rupa kedak Lee Hom atau Hawick Lau, janji bait - eksen jer tuh, mun macam nya 2 ya, mek sudi nak jadi gerek kitak kohhhh. Sanggup mek blaja kantonis dan mendalamkan ilmu huayu kohhh (celakars, banyak juak demand ko tek? Ko ingat ko kacak? Ko ya PHD? Ko ya genius? Ko ya golongan pandei sekolah? CGPA ciput jer, jangan berangan, FOREVER ALONE cukup!) Aihhhh. Aku tok sik bait, tapi entah lahhhhhhhh. Eeeeeeeeeeee. Mun nanggar kondisi kewangan aku tok nei mampu nak nikah. Jangan kata nak nikah, nak begerek pun sik mampu. Hadiah, sms, emosi terganggu. Semua ada. Emosi is a part of expenses too you know. Mun terganggu, harus ngeluar duit, polah retail therapy. Kimak lah semua ini.


Gigi ku sakit. Dentist madah gigi sensitive. Maiyama mahal ada jak filling nya. Celakars alu setengah medical ku aben. Ahhhh. Jangan jak sakit mahal macam cibai tok. Pasya masih sakit. Dalam sakit sakit lah ku ngerepak tok.


Apa gik lam palak ku tok? Aok, PTPTN. Mun ku tauk bagus ku iboh minjam. Biar aku sik mampu beli buku text, janji aku sik berutang macam tok. Lain lah mun aku tek blaja oversea, uni nok kaw kaw kaw. Nak kah duit k mayar ya aku dapat simpan, k meli iphone. Dolok sik maok blaja mena, sak dpt sekolarsip, sik payah bayar balit.

Aok. Aku maok iPhone 4s juak. Raget tek nakkk. (apple store malaysia)

Sikkkkkk, tauk bodo maok juak masok university. Sak pasya bila molah keja group, orang sik maok dengar ko pun suggestions (sebab ko bukan miak DL, ko sik ngapal text book time exam, ko tido jak, tapi lecturer mala madah ko dapat high score - part last ya menar aieee, untuk setengah2 subject jak lah) walaupun bestfriend kau masa diploma adalah best student dip in banking, orang anggap ko bodo juak sebab best student bukan kau. Aihhh, makin panjanggggggggggg ngerepaks.


Pasya, masa degree ko cayak juak mun lekcerer ya madah, dengar ajak nya ngajar, konfem dapat jawap soalan final. Aih, nya bukan madah dpt A, madah pat jawap ajak. Maka aku tauk, mun aku ngapal buku teks konfem aku akan jadi miak Anugerah diRaja / Anugerah Galaksi / Anugerah Queen Elizabeth segala (betapa shallow nya otak, sik pat nerimak jawapn kreatif inovatif student macam aku - sak jak mala madah think outside the box tapi jawapan masih lam dinding buku text. what de fuck ? )


OK apa gik? Aok, aku takut mati koh. Dolok maok juak ku nak mati (iman sik koat gik mudak konon) sebab aku rasa aku loser (kinek tok sama juak loser) sekda makna nak idup. Sampei aku takut nak jogging sebab takut datang ampus lekak berekot (mun aku sorang lah, mun ngan kawan, konfem ku bejalan jak) lalu koma pasya lalu mampus (sik sempat bertaubat, sik sempat nak merasa makei tudung kacak, sik sempat nak rasa kacak makei tudung). Aaaaa. Pasya mukak niuspaper mala jak nangga hal mati umor2 kedak aku tok. Bukak fb ada gik miak umor aku ninggal. Aihhh, aku lom cukup amalan nak diembak mati aihh. Eeee mek takut. SApa madah nya berani mati, nang aku salute kauuu.

www.scarfsweethoney.com

Percayalah, mun aku makei tudung, ala-ala macam tok rupa aku. Btw, tudung tok kacak. Mun nak turning a new leaf tok, maok beli baju baru gik, nukar isik baju gik, nak improvise baju kinek tok klak rupa kedak miak tadika kelakkkkkkkkk.


Aaaaa.. gigi ku sakit. Eeeeee. Oh, aku polah pact ngan kawan ku, mun ada non muslim single klak ku pas ngan nya, klak mun ada cina maok convert, nya pas ngan aku. Ekekekeke..


Kedong aku tek maok legacy sepet diteruskan lam family. Aku maok anak ku putih, walaupun muka jaik tapi kulit licin sebab nya nurun mak ku suka makan oren / limo. Aihh melelat. OK. Sakit gigi maka dah tampong. Choi!!! Tido lok. Esok nak ke perodua ngembak gerek ku kaler medallion grey ya sebis. Choi!!! Ngabis duit jak ehhh!! Choiii!!!

Every single day...this came to mind...

“The reason I called is to tell you how I feel about you. I know we didn’t work out the first time and I know it doesn’t make any sense but I can’t shake this feeling that we belong together. Is there any part of you that wants to try again?” 

How I Met Your Mother, Season 7, Episode 1, 2012 (Barney / Robin)

"Do you realize there are only two options for our future together? It's either we break up or get married." (Strangers Again, Wong Fu Productions, 2011)

And most of my acquaintances are opting for the latter. and my option is to attend the reception or tuck away in a corner of the house and cry. IDK. I'm just tired with work I guess. Not that I'm super duper busy, I'm tired with PEOPLE who work so damn hard to make other suffers at work. That leads to my current state of mind - super emo. and looking at happy couples makes my emo-meter raise to the highest level. Ahhhhh!!!

"I think, that if life separates us, and we end up in totally different places, we’ll always remember when our paths aligned for this period of time, and I’ll be thankful for that, and hope that wherever you are, you’ll be thankful too, and I think that’s the best we can wish for"

Josh (Strangers Again, 2011) 

FOREVER A LOAN (pun intended ;P) Ryan Higa you are a genius!! ahaks

Especially for Ms. WJ

Happy Birthday babe =)


May this beautiful day brings you joy, laughter and lots and lotsssssss of love. God Bless :)

Skyscraper - Demi Lavato

"Do you have to make me feel like there's nothing left of me?"
-Skyscrapper, Demi Lavato.

The Harmony Silk Factory

"These are the things I have already lost, I know, but what will happen to the memories? Will they remain, or will they slowly fade away as old photographs do, blenched to nothingness by sunlight?"
-The Harmony Silk Factory, 2005, pg 137.

finally, i found what i have been looking for..for so loooooong :)

No words can describe how I felt when I saw it on a shelf, staring at me. I had to buy it, right at that very moment.





How I wish Kino is in Kuching and as amazing as the one at KLCC. I am content, for now :)

So if I ever see you on the street, I'll pretend that I didnt see, And turn my face, No use in small talk anyways (Won't Even Start, David Choi)

Mula-mula saya lihat ini trailer. Cute juak bunyi nya tek, suddenly Apek nama David Choi ya bejalan ngembak gas k pam ballon ya, terkezut ku nengar sora nya. Adakah benar budak yang kelihatan nerd ini, mempunya suara sedemikian?

Macam Teddy Bear. Pic credit : wong fu productions

Macam, erm.. dubb ker? Tok nang sora nya. Kacak aieeeee. Ada nya datang KL ari ya, tapi aku sik gago nak jadi YouTube slave sebab aku bencik nunggu video load. Tok dah jadi antu YouTube tok, haruslah aku memperkenalkan YouTube sensation tok ke mata dunia, erkkkss. Tok MV full, nok atas ya trailer jer. Lagu tok kacak tapi aku sik minat, ada sigek lagu lamak nya ku minat. Pastok ku engkah sitok. Kacak sik dress ompuan tok? Suka ku nanggar dress si Jenny tok koh.

By My Side Official MV

Kembali ke lagu yang saya suka. That Girl. Aok lahhh, saya melted dengar sora nya. Mun kitak orang sik sama haluan ngan aku, sik apa lah, banyak gik orang lam dunia tok. Hahaha.

That Girl Official MV

Lagu sigek tok pun bagus juak. Ngeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee :D

Won't Even Start MV

Cute aieeeeeeeeeeeeeee. Bukan David, tapi lagu tok. Sik salah juak aku nak madah nya cute kedak miak umor 17 tahun. Bukan cute in a way nak nyuruh aku drool lah (atau nang ter-drool sikit? aihh, cougar kah?)

Kina Grannis, Cambridge.

Cambridge

I will put the whole playlist for my own reference on the right bar. Feel free to check it out. Love all her songs.

Just want to listen to something new (this is new to me). Kepak lah nengar hitz.fm jak-jak. Lihatlah dunia, apa jadi bila sekda life, mala jak nanggar YouTube.